The Heavyweight Podcast
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The Heavyweight Podcast
Reparenting Yourself
What happens when your inner child is calling the shots in your adult life? This raw, vulnerable conversation dives deep into inner child healing and how unresolved childhood trauma quietly shapes our relationships, decision-making, and self-perception.
The hosts open up about confronting painful family truths, standing firm in their experiences without guilt, and what real healing actually looks like. “I was F-ing people up because I was fed up,” one host admits—proving just how much unhealed wounds can silently damage our closest connections until we finally face them.
Welcome to the Heavyweight Podcast.
Speaker 3:The message behind saying the title of the Heavyweight Podcast is to be able to say that we can weigh in on some heavy shit. What we're talking about is important from every aspect of it. It's a heavy weight. It's not just about physical weight, but the weight of things that can weigh our minds. So I think it's dope that we can have this conversation.
Speaker 2:I can't even see balconies, the same, I'd be like, oh god, that shit.
Speaker 4:I love women. Yeah, I just prefer black ones. It's just, I'm being real about it save that, save that for later. I do love me a black woman, especially with a fro in a sundress well, the last black woman I encountered with a fro in a sundress.
Speaker 1:Well, uh, the last black woman I encountered with a fro I had with almost my life and I recognized it and I went I'm gonna stand down jesus henry she about to fight you.
Speaker 1:Oh, she wasn't going, she was in chicago. Oh, and I, she's gonna shoot you. And it was the, the car dealership or not dealership, the rental car place, and I wasn't happy with how things went. So I started getting in and she like kind of did a little thing and I was like I was like oh, she's, she's prepared she's about to match it.
Speaker 4:She's about to match that energy yeah whatever you're ready, what's up everybody?
Speaker 2:it's your girl guest, the diva hosting today, so we gonna see how this goes.
Speaker 4:Introduce yourselves.
Speaker 1:Damn that's all it did, damn.
Speaker 4:I missed that nigga already. He make me feel invited, these niggas here, y'all.
Speaker 2:We just messing with you. Y'all know these niggas get on my damn nerves. Introduce your little punk ass self.
Speaker 4:Now we gotta be punk ass. No just you T-S Sweat.
Speaker 1:Teef Sweat.
Speaker 4:Nobody.
Speaker 2:Hey, I saw a video you did and you picked up a big ass fucking stick and you were like hey, a toothpick, they got died. This nigga is hilarious.
Speaker 4:It's your boy, molito man.
Speaker 2:How was y'all weeks?
Speaker 1:Well.
Speaker 2:Long.
Speaker 1:Pause.
Speaker 2:I guess I was gonna wait. I think you gotta pause that.
Speaker 1:I think you gotta pause that.
Speaker 2:I was gonna wait. He ain't gotta pause the shit. His week was long. How was your week? He didn't finish his why.
Speaker 4:He didn't finish his. Why you cut?
Speaker 1:him short. Yeah, I was about to go on vacation, but fuck that vacation, go ahead. She said damn nigga, back to the zone, that's it. Yeah, I'm going to go to the Wolf Lodge and shit. Oh damn, come to have some fun.
Speaker 2:With the kids, yeah. I'm not what the fuck, I don't know what they got there.
Speaker 4:That might actually be dope going to a wood by yourself.
Speaker 2:I don't know what they have there as an adult.
Speaker 1:Yeah, I think they might watch you. You ain't got to go in the water park just being a hotel watcher, oh you just mean to be there because I was like. I feel like they might just be like what is this weird nigga? Hey, my man, he been here for like three days and ain't got no kids, children's place, yeah, yeah, I feel like that happened to me the other day.
Speaker 4:That was, yeah, it was yesterday. It was at five below me and the wife while the uh daughters at practice and I was just um, we were getting stuff for the you know our puppy and like I was walking down the aisles and like this is uh, this man and his two daughters were walking by so I stepped back so his daughter can pass and he looked at me like nigga, what are you doing in the toy section?
Speaker 4:I got kids too. Nigga like she not with me, but but he look like he just confused like why are you here? Like, hey, I backed out the way so your daughter can pass. I know how it is. I'm like look here, I know you see my child move nigga. What's good, though, um, you know healing and uh and growth that's it.
Speaker 1:I mean was that this week you got a dog? It looked like he's glossed over that.
Speaker 4:No, we had a dog. We had him about three weeks now.
Speaker 1:That dog is so cute. I don't feel like you mentioned that. I didn't. I mentioned it. Yeah, you did.
Speaker 4:A couple weeks ago I mentioned that we were going to get the dog because she hit all our marks.
Speaker 1:Okay, my bad.
Speaker 4:Yeah.
Speaker 1:Yeah, not paying attention, huh.
Speaker 4:She named her Macy she's made a good story.
Speaker 1:Oh, that's so cute. That's a good story.
Speaker 4:You know, yeah. So and we were like I kept saying like dang, and then. So my wife figured out Macy is one of the characters on one of the shows she watched, so she named her after one of her characters on one, I mean yeah, because it couldn't be who I was thinking of.
Speaker 2:That's a good name for that dog. That's cute.
Speaker 1:I was thinking childless and good-nigh, no, no no, that baby don't know that lady.
Speaker 3:That lady don't know that lady.
Speaker 2:I like Macy Gray. I think she got her raspiness and her whims. I like her.
Speaker 4:Oh man. Rest in peace, angie.
Speaker 2:Oh, I thought, thought you about to say macy gray? I was like what? Oh, yes, we are, yes, legend. Yeah, I'm gonna say this to you and don't don't say nothing crazy back to me, okay. Okay, in reference to you saying that you had a week of healing and growth and whatever you, your weight loss journey, you and your wife look phenomenal. No one is trying to fuck either one of you.
Speaker 4:I need you to speak into the mic though.
Speaker 2:But you and your wife look phenomenal, Like amazing job on your weight loss journey.
Speaker 4:I appreciate that.
Speaker 2:Thank you. Thank you for not saying I'm crazy, because I know it was hard.
Speaker 4:You look good, me too. Thanks, kevin, stop trying to fuck, hey man.
Speaker 1:He's going, gonna get it out one way or another. That's what she said. Yeah, I'll let y'all have that my man not here.
Speaker 4:I got it. I got a represent for my man. He's not here. He might. He might say that's low hinking freak, though oh like old man balls okay
Speaker 2:everybody so we're gonna move on, because hell no, we ain't finna talk about old nigga balls over here.
Speaker 4:Okay, I had a great week dragging him across the street that was your week, just a snail of balls great week.
Speaker 2:I had a great week, was it? Yes, I did. I had a great week. Are you killing?
Speaker 4:I am healing because I was trying. I was giving you counsel.
Speaker 2:I was getting you a little tad bit. I thought you're going to start paying. Oh charge, kaiser, baby, I have insurance.
Speaker 4:I don't work for Kaiser, I'm independent.
Speaker 1:Oh, he wants under, he want cash yeah.
Speaker 2:I get it. You're talking about Apple Pay.
Speaker 4:Non, non, non taxable it's a holy.
Speaker 2:Whatever, speaking of healing, we are going to talk about the inner child today.
Speaker 4:Are we?
Speaker 2:Yes, we are, yes, we are. So let's get going.
Speaker 4:My inner child wants some Oreos. Shit, mine too. I was really hoping I saw a pound cake when I walked in.
Speaker 2:I'm trying to tell you.
Speaker 1:I forgot to tell that's good. I should have brought them damn Rice Krispie treats. But it's cool, I asked her at the last second and I think she ain't making that shit now.
Speaker 2:It's my fault anyway, what y'all ready? Yeah, of course, yeah what uh, does a healed inner child look like to you, and how do you know when the work is complete?
Speaker 1:a healed inner child would be, uh, someone who's not afraid to you know, be silly, not worried about what other people think about them when they're in their zone, their happy space, vulnerable, willing to take risk. That's how I see inner child, cause I feel like as you get older, you get more reserved and cautious about shit. So I think the healed inner child kind of knows when to let loose and knows who to be like that around as well.
Speaker 2:Okay, what was the second part? And then the second part was uh, how do you know when the work has been complete.
Speaker 1:So the inner work on that part, that's what it was that I don't think it is. I think that's always evolving. I agree. Yeah, I agree I agree.
Speaker 2:You know how I feel about healing not being linear, so I definitely agree, you're gonna always be working on the inner child yeah, there's a lot.
Speaker 1:Yeah, you guys go. I don't want to say no, go ahead, say it's like there's some inner children out there. That's you just a kid nigga.
Speaker 4:Yeah ain't got there yet, that's who you is.
Speaker 2:Nigga, that's who you gonna be.
Speaker 4:I just think that, uh, similar what Kevin was saying. Once you've done the part of healing your past traumas, you are now comfortable in your space and in your skin and in your being. You don't let anybody knock you off your square or judge you for what you like and what you don't like, even when you don't fit the societal norms of things. I think that's what part of being healed means that you, you find your place, you and you rock with yourself and you get to a state in life where you love yourself and that's all of that really matters. The outside influences our opinion, don't penetrate what you built and you just you get to a situation to where you're so secure in yourself that you can't be moved.
Speaker 4:I think that's what it looks like and I. But also I feel like for a second part, I feel like it is a constant journey because there's always going to be things in life where you have to work on, because you're always going to have some type of new experience, some type of new setback that you have to push through. So I feel like it's like you said it isn't a evolving thing and it's not necessarily going to always be stagnant. It's going to be like you said, it's going to be something that that kind of goes with the, with the flow of the time and you know and what's going on in your life, because you can. You can be 10 toes down on something and be concrete and then boom, you get blindsided by something you didn't expect. So then you have to figure out how to navigate that. So I do feel like that's something that you always have to work towards.
Speaker 2:Yeah, I definitely agree. I think for me, a part of knowing that I was starting to work on my inner child was when I was able to say things to my parents and not feel guilty for saying them Like I stood in my truth, no matter how it was going to make them feel, and I wasn't afraid to just say hey, this, the way you behave when you do this, makes me feel this way and I can't accept that. So I think that's when I started to realize that my own inner child was beginning to heal. Now I'm still working on her. She still wants the Kinsey Nier address. Buy it, I swear to God. I'm thinking about it. I'm thinking about going to try the.
Speaker 2:Muffica Zone at least, because they're expensive. But I might yeah, I was going to say, just try them, try them on and take pictures in them.
Speaker 1:I'm not going to know. Kim Sazer, Take a picture of the tag and go. This is why I didn't buy that shit.
Speaker 4:Or something that was so bad. But to your point, des, I agree. When I got to a point where I'm able to have conversations with my parents and I'm openly honest with them and I can tell a lot of times when I talk to them they don't like what I'm saying.
Speaker 4:Oh, yeah, oh yeah, they don't like what I'm saying, but it's to the point, to where I tell them. I said look, my experience is my experience, your experience is your experience. We got two different views, but, unfortunately for you, the view that matters in this situation is mine, because I have to navigate and move my life and my actions based on my peace, and if that is not something that does not align with what you want, that's something that you're going to have to figure out and deal with, because it's not my problem.
Speaker 2:Absolutely. I secretly think sometimes parents know and they just don't want to hear it because nobody likes you holding a mirror to their face. I think sometimes they know. They know they fucked you up. I know when I fuck somebody over. I know when I've done wrong to somebody. You do and I think sometimes they know and they just don't want you to hold that mirror to their face.
Speaker 1:I feel like it's harder with parents. You feel like it's harder Because they're not thinking like that. They're trying to do the best they can and they won't know nothing unless you say something.
Speaker 2:I don't think my daddy was doing the best he could.
Speaker 4:I get the hindsight is 20-20, but I also feel like parents also know where they came up short. Oh yeah, that's fine right but then but the.
Speaker 1:They don't know the results though, because like say, you got multiple kids and they come out differently where you're like they're gonna come affects them differently. You know, I'm saying they don't. I don't feel like they're thinking that way. They're gonna come out differently.
Speaker 4:But what I'm saying is is to your point, kevin. To what you're saying yes, they may not know the what the outcome is, but we can't gloss over that. Regardless of the outcome, the role they played and so I'm not saying my response to that of how I choose to deal with that peacefully, even if that upsets you.
Speaker 1:You have to accept the fact that this is how I process what happened I understand that, but I'm saying to say that they know they fucked this up. It's like I'm I think. I don't think that's necessarily true.
Speaker 4:No, I'm not saying they know they fucked us up, that's all I'm speaking to. I do believe to some degree they tried the best they could in the capacity that they had. Right, because when you look at it especially I know, when I look at my parents it's just a bunch of people who was not healed. Yes, it's just a bunch of people who did who was not healed, there was not healed, and that you had children, raising children, and they didn't understand the gravity of decisions being made, the gravity of actions being taken, and they kind of just thought they, they did what they thought was best in the moment and, granted, a lot of those decisions did not pan out great when it becomes when it comes to the relationship between them and their and their child. But some situations did come out great.
Speaker 1:But at the end of the day, no one spoke in that scenario, I believe. I believe nobody spoke in all those scenarios.
Speaker 4:But my main thing is at the end of the day, accountability still has to be taken, regardless of the outcome.
Speaker 1:I understood, but they don't know that unless you tell them.
Speaker 4:What is I'm saying? That's what I mean.
Speaker 1:I don't put the onus on them without saying anything, because I've had that conversation with my parents and it's like different responses, but it's like, oh, I didn't even think about that until it was brought to me. I didn't know that. You know what I mean.
Speaker 2:Yeah, I get that I get that know the reason why. I know my parents know my mom's probably gonna cuss me out when she watches this. But the reason why I know my parents know is because my mom makes comments like well, I did the best I could, I don't know. Are you still mad at it? I don't know. Do you know? You know there's an issue there, because why would you even reference there being an issue if you, if you?
Speaker 1:didn't think there was one. She knows because that.
Speaker 2:Have you spoken my, my dad has multiple kids and we all are ready to cuss him out on a weekly basis. His ass also knows you spoke it, but she says she spoke it yeah.
Speaker 4:But the reaction from the mother, and that from her mom, in that situation is defensive.
Speaker 4:Because she knew she's not willing to, she's not really listening, she's defending herself, right? Because I went through something similar like that with my mother and I told my mom. I said it's not about you defending yourself. I said I understand that you did the best you could. You had a lot going on, you were fighting a lot of battles, but that doesn't change the outcome of your actions and none of your children hold your actions against you. I said you're the one that is still. I said you're the one that needs to forgive yourself.
Speaker 2:Exactly.
Speaker 4:Because you're the one that gets defensive when this happens. Because if you talk to your children we've all forgiven you, we've all moved on in our life, we've all still tried to have somewhat of a relationship with you You're the one holding yourself back.
Speaker 2:Exactly Because in a lot of cases, they haven't healed their inner child and now they got to heal their adult. Yeah, haven't healed their inner child and now they got to heal their adult.
Speaker 1:So I wasn't speaking to any of that, I was speaking just to the point of speaking it out, that's all Talk it out.
Speaker 2:No, you know, I get that.
Speaker 4:So sometimes you got to throw a fist and talk it out.
Speaker 2:Oh my God, I'm not hitting my mama.
Speaker 1:I mean unless I.
Speaker 2:I mean there's something there not with mine some households where I could go. I mean what my dad? But I'm not hitting I'm just talking, sure, I ain't hit nobody so, with that being said, what are some common signs that someone is is operating within their inner child? The inner child is running the show running the show.
Speaker 1:That's bad, that's not good. Yeah, yeah, I mean, I think that there's some niggas out here, I think the biggest sign is immaturity.
Speaker 2:Yeah, and not willing to take accountability.
Speaker 4:Indecisiveness, absolutely Just inability to do anything productive for long periods of time.
Speaker 2:That's also ADHD.
Speaker 4:Something that you didn't say growing up.
Speaker 2:Yeah, yeah, I think not holding accountability Like I really firmly believe as adults we know what we are doing and not taking that accountability where you make mistakes. That's just one of the most childish things on earth to me. That's how I know you really operating in that space, because you can't fix the problem unless you're an officer you have to, you know, and you have to be bold enough to be like, hey, I fuck it up, can't cook over.
Speaker 4:Well, I don't know.
Speaker 1:I just don't know because I think about it like, I thought about that differently and not in that aspect because I feel like that's just that could be a you could not have the inner child and just be a fucking piece of shit and it's a fact jack, but I don't know.
Speaker 1:I feel like when I was when I thought about that question, I was thinking more along the lines of like when you look at immaturity, yes, it's part of that, but like people who impulsive, they don't prioritize shit. Like things that are a priority to them is not like you know your lights about to get cut off.
Speaker 4:Fuck you doing buying these rims, chris Brown is on tour, nothing else matters.
Speaker 2:God damn it, because Christopher Brown is on tour. Baby, I wasn't even going to say nothing. Them tickets going to sell tomorrow, baby.
Speaker 4:They finna give up light bills, gas bills, car notes and they gonna call these companies and ask for extensions.
Speaker 1:Unless selfishness and that.
Speaker 2:Listen, I said oh my God.
Speaker 1:One for self.
Speaker 2:Christopher Brown.
Speaker 1:And he said he's doing them meet and greets. I'm coming to see you, baby. It's not gonna be 1100 this time. The meet and greet we want. It's a stadium tour. Yeah, the meet, and we were. It's a stadium tour.
Speaker 2:Yeah, I love him. I'm coming to see you.
Speaker 4:Chris couple racks, I think it's. I think it's Chris, summer and Bryson yes, it is, yes, it is, yes.
Speaker 2:I so happen to love Summer Walker too, but, chris, I love Summer. Before the surgery maybe I'm gonna come and sing you your songs okay don't do that, that's.
Speaker 1:I love him. You gonna pay money to sing his song?
Speaker 2:Yes, I'll sing to you yes, so will.
Speaker 4:Alright, just make sure you sing it to him, not to us. Record it.
Speaker 2:Record it and will, and will, and will I don't need to hear that at all.
Speaker 1:Whatever, just the singing, though, please Did everybody.
Speaker 2:Listen. The rest of that shit might go, though. Please Did everybody Listen. The rest of that shit might go viral, baby Okay. That's on your page. I go viral, we go viral. No, no, no.
Speaker 4:That's not how that shit work at all. No-transcript.
Speaker 2:They're like hey here we are all alone in reference to that, the inner child running the show. I think a lot of times people who have the inner child still running the show. Sometimes they have arrested development and you can clearly see where about the trauma started on their inner child. They might be still very teenage, like in their thinking, or very adolescent, like in their thinking, because that's where their trauma started that's probably me.
Speaker 1:That's why I bought all those fuck all the shit that I wanted. You know what? Honestly, couldn't afford this shit. Now I got this. I did the same thing I did the same thing.
Speaker 2:I did the exact. I had a pager when nobody else had a pager where and I made yourself marina valley at marina valley and my best friend.
Speaker 2:I made her get one because I had one, so I had to have one at the same time, so I made her get one too. Bill was like 5 am dollars but I I wanted it as a kid really bad and my mom wouldn't let me have it and everyone else had one. So as soon as I was able to do those things, I ran rampant when I turned 18. I had bullshit that did not make sense.
Speaker 4:Oh yeah, I was just weird dude. I never wanted to be contacted. Shit, call me.
Speaker 2:I wish we could go back to that shit, though, because I don't want anybody calling my damn phone now. Beep me, though, because I don't want nobody calling my damn phone now beat me. Shit, don't, don't, don't, don't. You got text, yeah, messages. I want to be beeped, okay, okay, because you can't tell if I looked at that motherfucker or not.
Speaker 4:The text message is gonna fucking tell you when that, when that sidekick come back out, there's gonna have one two of them.
Speaker 1:Chirp me two of them where you at yeah, I remember that happened at mobile. Some girls was like what's your chirp? And I was like I don't got no chirp.
Speaker 3:I thought that was the dumbest shit it was dumb as hell I can't stand people who talk on speakerphone, so don't chirp me.
Speaker 2:I hated that damn chirp and then my mom would call to cuss us out. When we tried to respond, she'd press that button and interrupt the chirp, so you would just hear ding. That shit used to piss me off. No, but back to the question how do we start to reparent ourselves? Reparent, mm-hmm, I don't know In, I don't know In ways that feel compassionate. Check yourself.
Speaker 4:I think that goes what you were just saying about the impulsiveness and all that. Like you start, you scale that back and you start to understand that that's not conducive to your way of living or your future. Create a you got to be more Boundaries for yourself yeah. You got to be more strategic with your life got to be more strategic with your life.
Speaker 2:You got to plan, map shit out.
Speaker 2:Yeah, I think you have to first recognize that it is an issue no I mean that's any issue, because I because honestly I don't think I in the beginning realized that I had that anything from my childhood was part of my adult issues. I just thought this life been life and this is my damn adulthood, so this is the damn problem. And then I realized, well, the decisions I made to get me here in my adulthood all stemmed from things I saw in my childhood. So I think you have to first recognize that and then tackle them one at a time.
Speaker 4:But it's not just your decisions, it's how you process.
Speaker 2:Yes.
Speaker 4:It's your point of view, your train of thought, all that comes from your upbringing, your childhood, because your childhood really is to teach you how to navigate through the mental stress as well as the physical growth of life.
Speaker 2:Yeah, I agree, you literally have to learn everything.
Speaker 4:That's why I say raising children is a really important and difficult goddamn job. That's why I do like Kevin was saying. I do agree that you have to give parents grace because you don't want to really understand the gravity of the situation of being a parent until you win that shit and you're like, oh man, this shit is real.
Speaker 1:And don't nobody know what the fuck they're doing. We all can say we know what we're doing, but it's like shit.
Speaker 4:They hit a certain age and you're like that ain't what the fuck I thought you was gonna do. But yeah, I'm there now.
Speaker 1:Wow, I just did all that for nothing.
Speaker 2:Yeah, yeah, but for self uh, go ahead, I don't have children, so I'm gonna outside looking in. When it comes to parenting and the, and the way that I view it is, I think our parents came from a generation where mental health wasn't important to anybody, they were not getting therapy, they were not really working on their healing. And now this generation is really sick of it and we want to heal, and so many people are raising their children differently because we are now recognizing that a lot of what happened to us as children caused a problem in our adulthood, and don't nobody want to just intentionally fuck their damn kids up.
Speaker 1:Well, I think it goes both ways too. I think some of it we go too far and it's like sometimes we gotta because it's like we don't know. We don't know like we could do all this stuff and say 20, 30 years down the line. It's like, hey, y'all went a little too much on it, like you know. So we don't know, like it's still the same cycle.
Speaker 1:But it's like certain things we know aren't good for just the psyche or things to see. You know what I mean. Like the shit that I seen ain't good for nobody, nobody. So it's like there ain't gonna be no generation. Well, that's not true, because prior to even prior to my parents generation, that was like the normal shit. Like, if you think about it, you're like that's nuts. There's a whole generation where you're like man, that's just how it went. Like oh, they did that at the grocery store. Like you know what I'm saying. Like nobody at the grocery store, we can give a fuck, but I don't know. It's. It's yeah, do what you feel is right, as long as you feel it's right. I guess, like, if you feel like it's right and you feel like it's not been, check it.
Speaker 4:I feel like everybody's fighting our generation and our parents' generation. We're all fighting the same mental battle. I just feel that our generation is at a point where we have more tools to deal with and recognize what's going on.
Speaker 2:Yeah.
Speaker 4:We're way more equipped.
Speaker 2:For those that choose to use those tools correctly, because the internet is not a tool. Everyone is not a narcissist, and a lot of people I've noticed that that's like the trend no matter what you do, people on the internet automatically. Oh, you're a narcissist, but I don't think.
Speaker 4:That's just. People learn new words and don't get nothing to say.
Speaker 1:Don't say the internet's not a tool. The internet is a tool.
Speaker 2:Social media, not you. You can't result to instagram for your therapeutic needs. No, it's not gonna work out.
Speaker 4:It depends on what account you're looking at, because some accounts you'd be like okay these bitches is not looking at the right account.
Speaker 1:Oh oh, never mind, I ain't talking about that. Kevin say some of them is ai oh well that ai is moving me I hate ai. I'm sick of it sometimes it's here to stay yeah, I see.
Speaker 2:I see robots is coming. Kim kardashian got a robot boyfriend. We're gonna go there anyways. A lot of people um fear healing their inner child, um out of fear of losing their edge or their creativity. We'll talk about it later. You ain't seen her on that.
Speaker 1:On that, no, this, that's inner child shit.
Speaker 2:Yeah yeah, that's. That's a prime example of needing to heal your inner child. She definitely got her little AI boyfriend. Anyways, let me go back to the beginning. A lot of people fear healing their inner child out of fear of losing that edge or that creativity, that thing that makes them different.
Speaker 1:How do you respond to that? I don't know. I don't know how to, because I've never lost that guy. I've always lost that guy, I've always been that guy.
Speaker 4:Talk your shit nigga Flexin' over there, huh he said I'm that nigga.
Speaker 3:No, I'm not.
Speaker 2:I'm that nigga nigga Okay, talk good Okay.
Speaker 1:I've been the inner child shit. I've always found a way to just be me. It's been cool. It took a long while to get there, but I don't know. So I guess, to get there I will explain, because I don't know how it is after you get there it took a lot of just looking at myself and not giving a fuck about how people thought.
Speaker 1:Like, cause I used to care about how people perceived me, but then I realized it don't fucking matter, cause no matter what I do, they're going to perceive me how they perceive me. So I have no control over that. So I just kind of went with it. I didn't care that people will call me weird, like it used to bother me. And then I was just like I am kind of weird, like I just kind of acknowledge myself of shit, where it's like if somebody would say something that's not true, then I'm like that's not true and like didn't even have to acknowledge it. It's like just keep those people out of what I would consider my circle. You know what I mean. So it's you kind of see what's what like negative out there and you keep the negative away and whatever gravitates to who you are, then you gravitate back.
Speaker 2:So you really stood firmly in your truth, really, and let everything align on its own. Yeah, you have no.
Speaker 1:I guess you do have a choice, but you don't have a choice because you're going to be who you are no matter what, and if you're not, then you're not being who you are.
Speaker 4:I know you take a perch, maybe somebody else.
Speaker 1:Oh no, I definitely was. I heard so many stories was like I was blacked out dog. I don't remember. Oh damn Sorry, we shouldn't have gone.
Speaker 3:Don't do drugs.
Speaker 4:Please don't do drugs. I think a lot of times people have the issue isn't losing the edge. I think the issue is that they allowed something for so long to find a major part of their personality that when they figure out that it's not conducive to them or that it's a trauma response, it's hard for them to accept that because it's been such a big part of who they are for so long. So I think it's more part, so the fact of letting go of what could possibly be the thing that they claim give them edge, because it's actually hurting them internally, mentally to grow. I think it's more so. Part of you know, anytime change is involved, change is a difficult process and the more you resist it, the harder it becomes to change. So it gets to a point to where people for so long just get content and comfortable in the space that they're in. They're willing to just put up with whatever the consequences is of what's going to happen, because they're comfortable with their current version of their self.
Speaker 2:Yeah.
Speaker 4:Because what, what changing comes? Working with the work comes on being uncomfortable.
Speaker 1:And as you were saying that, I was thinking that too. Where it's like um the comfort part, people aren't willing to step outside yes and like sometimes there's things that draw you as like try it, you fucking try it.
Speaker 4:Live, like that's the biggest thing is to live that's why, like I said the other day, I said your past doesn't have to define your future. Yes, your past got you to this point and it gave you this amount of edge and it gave you this amount of grit. But who's to say that, if you let this go, you don't develop an even tougher shell, a tougher body like a tougher mind? Who's to say that changing from your current state is going to make you weaker? You won't know until you step out there yeah oh yeah.
Speaker 4:So I mean, and like again, like the old saying, that you have to learn to be uncomfortable and uncomfortable yeah, yeah, if you hold on to the past as an anchor yeah that's the only thing it could ever be yeah, so how does healing that inner child clarify your path, for you and your purpose?
Speaker 2:How does it bring clarity to that?
Speaker 4:didn't see before and you start to really take inventory of your life and your circles and even family dynamics right, and I can say for me what I started to do was I started to remove anything that didn't align with what I set out for my goals or how I see myself. So when you do things like that, you know some some people are going to be in your corner for it. Some people are going to say you change. Some people are going to say you know, oh, you switched up. Or you think you think you better. No, it's not that. But a lot of times when you do that and you start to grow the people who are not supposed to be there for the next part of your life, they're gonna fall off, no matter by themselves. You don't have to necessarily weed out people. The universe, in in excellent faction fashion, will remove the people and the things from your life that you don't need there anyway, the phrase is the universe will get out of your way.
Speaker 1:Yeah, yes, like it's crazy, that's dope. I like you said that.
Speaker 2:I definitely like that.
Speaker 1:I look at it like I didn't or not I did, but for my path and all that stuff and all that, I feel like that's that comes as living, like you said, but like the inner child part for me is like I look at kids as their love. Right, they lead with love. I try to lead with love.
Speaker 4:She is so it's like you ever took a right hook at three in the morning.
Speaker 1:That wasn't love yeah, it's usually from love of something you told them they can't have. Well, I can't have that, oh, she got me. Good, but like it's like that type of stuff. It goes with how you said, like how people, there'll be people in your life, that'll be a certain way, but when you move with love or lead with love or have love as your guiding point, all of that doesn't matter. Like you'll see the negativity, but you won't see the negativity. You're like okay, cool, that's where you at, that's how you feel, that's your life and, as you said, it will naturally run its course the way it's supposed to. So it's like, if you live like that, I feel like that's your inner child being the guiding force to everything, because after that things open up.
Speaker 4:Love, kind of lower your shields and actually allow people to come in.
Speaker 4:I think that is the toughest part of the journey to be more receptive to people and a lot of times it's not even people that are I wouldn't even say it's the strangers.
Speaker 4:Sometimes you have to open yourself and be more receptive to people who have shown you that they'll be around, because you're just so used to people walking out you're, you don't have the, you don't have the capacity or the willingness to try to let anybody else in because of how things turned out and and the younger version of yourself. So I think that to that point, I feel like it does get to a situation where you have to, you have to really step outside yourself on that part to have the healing part part, because the the harsh reality about a lot of things is you really do have to to some degree, be vulnerable in some situations to heal. You have to actually you know, you know step out on hope or faith or whatever you want to call it, and give and and give the opportunity. I'm not saying give the person the opportunity, but give, give, just give life the chance to show you something different.
Speaker 1:That's problems with the person, though I've noticed a lot of people aren't willing to give grace. Yes, they're not willing to let people have a chance at something. Certain things you cross and you're like you don't get a second chance. It is what it is. I get that. But there's some things where you're like you don't get a second chance. It is what it is. I get that. But there's some things where you're like I've talked to people I'm like damn dog, that seems a little like you could get past this, but I get it.
Speaker 4:But that comes with like being able to shed and be vulnerable and being like all right, I can see your perspective, but I'm not saying being vulnerable whatever, no, no, no, I'm saying being vulnerable with those who have proven to be in your corner or at least have shown up regularly, because sometimes, when you're vulnerable, that's when you're determined oh, they're just trying to wait their turn to get in.
Speaker 2:To get in yeah.
Speaker 4:And so now? But when you figure that out, you quickly close the door.
Speaker 2:Maybe fix it. Yeah, what role does?
Speaker 1:Joy, you didn't answer the question. She did that, like three of them. I watched. I watched she trying to stutter. She trying to stutter this shit Listen.
Speaker 2:Okay, Y'all don't make Stutter. Answer the damn question.
Speaker 4:He answers all the questions Shout out to my boy I mean there's plenty of clips where it's like nah nigga nah, nigga, thank you, thank you.
Speaker 2:thank you, thank you very much, um, I kind of agree with what you were saying about about like love, and in correlation with what you're saying about letting people in, because I noticed that as I started to heal my inner child, I did, I started to love differently and I could receive it differently, and I had more of an emotional intelligence to be able to love people in their own love language differently as well. So I think that was part of clearing my path. Being able to love different, receive it and not take love from foreign ass places too actually helped too, because I I think as a child, I was seeking love, um, and validation that's a big one from so many different spaces because I wasn't getting it from my parents yeah um, not that my mom didn't love me, because let me just say that because she gonna see this episode be like bitch.
Speaker 2:I loved you. What the fuck is going on? So she loved us, but my dad and he loved you in his own way, still question that. I don't know you. I got some stories still nigga pissed me off two days ago. I still question if that, if that, was love or if this is. I don't know that. My dad said himself lord dad, I am so sorry. I don't know that my dad intended on creating children that he would love. I don't know that he loves us from a genuine space.
Speaker 1:I don't feel loved by him from a genuine space. Yeah, I ain't seen Fences.
Speaker 4:He loved them, though he was talking that shit. I have that movie. Just he loved that nigga.
Speaker 3:He loved them, though he was talking that shit I have, I'm just saying, like that's what I'm feeling that movie, just, but that nigga was like.
Speaker 1:He loved that nigga, but you're like it's a different way. Yeah, he just didn't know how to, he didn't know how to express it. I just I think, and that's probably it, yeah, like a lot of niggas didn't know like me and my dad used, and then I got older and I was like he would say stuff, and then I'm just like that's cool, that's you basically saying you love me.
Speaker 4:And then again, this is something where you have to understand the generation and dynamic and how he was raised and how he was shown love. You know, I think it's a relatively new thing for fathers to tell their children they love and where they're from.
Speaker 2:Yeah, he tells us he loves us. It's the actions, if you have a nigga like hold on, cuz I don't know if you really I don't know what you say you owe.
Speaker 4:But you have to also go back to what Kevin said about giving grace. I give my parents a lot of grace because I understand like I don't know all the ins and outs of your upbringing, but the little, especially for my mom, the little inserts that I do know. I understand how she got to where she got. I understand how her mindset was at and I can give her grace because of the challenges she faced. And even when I hear my father talk and complain and all this stuff, it's like In my mind I have no doubt that he loved me. He just didn't.
Speaker 4:He didn't necessarily love the situation around my childhood and I and me personally I felt like he wasn't strong enough to fight in a situation to to to either be with me or be around me because he knew that I was in a safe place. So I felt like this is just me. I don't know if this is true on his part or not. I felt like in his mindset it was my son's going to be fine, he's going to be well taken care of. I'll try to cultivate that relationship with him once he's of age. That's how I feel my father looked at it because I can say once I got older and now, even to current day, he does do. He does do. He does provide a greater effort of trying to be around it in my life than he did before.
Speaker 4:So I think like he probably felt like the odds were against him and this was probably the best way he could go about it, and I acknowledge that. But then, at the same time, I asked him, like I said earlier, I asked him to acknowledge the fact that what you did is still what you did, and my view on fatherhood doesn't line up with your view on fatherhood when you're my age, because there's no way that I would ever just walk away from my child and not fight this here every day. So that's where we disagree Now. I can appreciate where you are now and I can forgive you for what you did, but what you did is still going to impact my behavior and how I move. And that's not saying that I don't love you, I don't care about you. It's just that these are. These are the walls that I've placed to protect myself, and so I have to protect these walls, regardless of how you feel.
Speaker 1:And, like you said, grace is big in that because it's like, as said, grace is big in that because it's like, as you're talking, I was thinking it's like sometimes you're like nigga, if I raised you, you would have came out fucked up because you gotta get in there.
Speaker 2:I am still working on the grace with my dad, but I do have grace for a lot of grace for my mom, but I also lived with my mom, so I and I know my mom's people, so I have a better understanding of what she's gone through and what some of her challenges were than I do my dad. So maybe that's the issue you know what I'm saying I'm gonna ask this nigga shit, though you know what I'm saying it doesn't, it doesn't matter.
Speaker 4:Even if in the, in a, in a, in a perfect world, let's say, your mom and dad stayed together, right, you still gonna know more of your mom's people than your dad's people because it's like, it's like. It's like like our friends, she, she has nothing but boys and she goes. I understand that one day some little heifer gonna come take my son and I ain't gonna never see him again because he gonna spend all the were at her parents house. Her, her, her parents gonna be the primary grandparents, because it's just that's just what it is, that tends to be what it is. You kind of lean towards the wife side, because a lot of times that's just that's not what it is not only
Speaker 1:oh yeah, no, I mean y'all different. I was like I feel like you. You have not seen the ellis household on the holiday. We like, like I'll be, but y'all be in here mixed up there's like niggas and whites. Oh good, like whites, whites, oh could be an NCAA.
Speaker 4:Where's Caitlyn?
Speaker 1:is Caitlyn Clark. Here is Caitlyn Clark here. Y'all ignorant, then a motherfucker.
Speaker 2:Well, I swear to.
Speaker 4:God, this is like this is a conference. Clark here, y'all ignorant. They ain't a motherfucker. Well, I swear to God. This is a conference. This is a Y'all ignorant.
Speaker 2:Are y'all ready? Go ahead. What's the role of play? Joy and spontaneity in your healing process.
Speaker 4:I think that plays everything, because when you find the things that give you joy in life, those are the things that you can always go back to when you're fighting the bad parts of life.
Speaker 2:Yeah, I can get with that. I can get with that Like the balconies. Ah, my nigga, my nigga. I think I find that I want to do childlike things as joy when I'm healing my inner child. So, for example, I love to fly kites. Oh, really, it's kind of my thing. Springs are here. I have three kites in my car. Oh no, I love to fly kites, I don't believe that's true.
Speaker 2:I have kites in my car and me and hayden, if the wind right, we put a pullover, fly the kite, because that was something I I didn't do with my parents when I was little but I really wanted to do it. That's some shit too yeah, yeah, yeah, I guarantee, I guarantee I'm born. I should have been at woodstock. I'm'm born in the wrong generation.
Speaker 1:It wasn't as cool as you think. You was there, stinky. No, I wasn't there. I just watched the documentary. That's doo-doo, that's not mud.
Speaker 2:Oh my God. Now I'm intrigued and I'm going to watch the documentary.
Speaker 2:I think I find myself wanting to do those childlike things I didn't do often as a kid, like go to the park, like I literally took Hayden to the park one Christmas in the damn rain because that's what he wanted to do. So he was in the park swinging in the rain. I think that also is where my desire to have children is strong, because I want to give those children that childhood that I don't feel like I got and also, at the same time, I want to play with their toys. So don't you want this?
Speaker 1:bop it oh, I can't, I can't, I don't want no bop. It's no more. It's over.
Speaker 4:I can't even foster for that, because I bought a whole hot wheel track.
Speaker 1:I'm trying to tell you and that's my kid. No, you should have just bought it for yourself and then you're gonna try to disguise it I would have came with my this
Speaker 4:is for me you could have. It was great. Yeah, I've done that I think I've got a great time myself.
Speaker 1:And then they were like is that for us?
Speaker 2:like no, you can play with it, but it's, it's mine, it's mine yeah, I literally have a BBA bop it with a 3CPO's voice, and I had to hide it from Hayden because he kept trying to take my bop. It that's funny, but I yeah my daughter does.
Speaker 4:She just found the bop it. That's her new thing she was playing them easy. My high score is 107.
Speaker 1:I said you playing them easy. That's good to know.
Speaker 2:We can still get those yeah, you can get a bop it. You can, and they come and they they have one that you can play with somebody. That's called a bop it pass yeah, that's what we got.
Speaker 4:It go pass it's so fun.
Speaker 2:I love it. Yeah, I literally be one to play with the toys. That's why I will babysit your kids, just so I can. I'm doing with Legos. I don't like Legos in my 3,000 pieces.
Speaker 4:I'm good.
Speaker 2:I'm down, I'm with it, I love it. Bubbles give me a bubble machine. I be wanting to ask for damn toys for my birthday.
Speaker 4:I love it. I got four gallons of bubbles at my house.
Speaker 2:I'll come blow some bubbles. Don't play, I'm so over bubbles. I don't have children. No one in my house is doing this.
Speaker 1:All you got to do is have one spill and then you go, and Hayden is it?
Speaker 4:I'm letting you know right now when you do. I got the bubbles for you. Okay, because you can have all these goddamn bubbles.
Speaker 2:Hold on to them.
Speaker 4:And the 27 bubble machines.
Speaker 2:We got Hold on to them. I need one. I don't have children. Hayden isn't an outside kid. He's very technical. He would love to be here producing shit, because he's that type of kid he don't want to do no outside stuff. I want to go outside, but I can get him to play.
Speaker 4:I want to be outside too.
Speaker 2:On the balcony.
Speaker 4:Sundress season's almost here. Oh God, oh, my God, sundress, no drawers. You know it's fun everywhere To address that question. My God, sundress, no drawers. You know, it's fun everywhere.
Speaker 1:To address that question.
Speaker 4:I think the dress, the sundress.
Speaker 1:Address the question. Oh, okay, address the question. Nasty, I think I'm doing that. I'm learning that more with the kids because I've gotten to a point where I think I get too protective, to a point where I think I get too protective and I'm stealing away their fun sometimes, where I gotta just let them do stuff. You're gonna fall. You gotta let them do that.
Speaker 4:See, we had this conversation. Stop triggering me today, Kevin.
Speaker 1:Did I, have I been triggering you? We literally had this conversation because my wife was talking about how the maturity level of.
Speaker 4:We literally had a conversation I know nobody because my apologies we were talking. My wife was talking about how the maturity level of our child and I said well, babe, you have to understand. Like at seven we were like we had like chores and doing shit, we were responsible, like we had to. We were getting calls like make sure you just fuck home, type shit. She's literally being allowed to just be a child. The only thing she think about is the next thing she about to play with or what next thing is gonna give her joy. So her level of maturity is not there because she hasn't been forced to mature the way we have. I said, so you got to give her grace now. Granted, I understand it's frustrating because this girl run up a water bill and a light bill quick, how? Because she'll cut the shower on then start playing ain't you supposed to be showering?
Speaker 1:that ain't gonna. Yeah, that don't change, ain't you? She just left and I'll be like is she taking a? Is that a bath shower?
Speaker 4:I said this is gonna be something. I said this is gonna be something my whole life. I said because, you know, as they get older, you know women, women, they take them 30-minute showers.
Speaker 2:Yeah, she's a girl, I just told you a bath shower.
Speaker 1:You fill it up. Then you take the drain, turn the shower on. You lay in the shower and you're like, are you Wait, what, what?
Speaker 2:Are you just using more water? She fills up the tub.
Speaker 1:She filled the tub up and then you open the drain and let it start to drain out, but you leave the shower on nah, hell nah so, nah, yeah, you thought you thought it, you thought it ended, nah, but then I go, you know what that's dope, that's dope like no, it's not it sucks, but I'm like that's dope and like I wanna ruin whoever comes along. Whatever dude comes along, it's toast, it's toast. Well, my daughter got expensive taste. Yeah, homie, can you afford $300 a month in water?
Speaker 4:Yeah, and that's before you water the grass, that's just water.
Speaker 1:My G Before you water the grass, did everybody answer you?
Speaker 4:said 300. Can you afford 300 a week in food?
Speaker 2:Yeah, she keeps saying your baby eats a lot, and I just can't. She's so little.
Speaker 4:She's active. And she don't want to eat at home, she want to go out, she want to go to the restaurant.
Speaker 2:Every time I eat pho, I think of her.
Speaker 4:That's her favorite thing, she was in there.
Speaker 2:She too cute, she go to to fuck.
Speaker 4:She drink the broth more than she eat the noodles. I said, child, we could have got you some broth, right, yeah, but the broth is cheap. I could call and say, hey, can I just get a bowl of broth? Yeah, probably try. It's only two, three dollars we got all that extra shit.
Speaker 1:Not all of it's good, though.
Speaker 4:Eat the whole thing, especially especially when you got like a sore throat or something sure yeah.
Speaker 1:I just I'll say I have a sore throat yeah, just so I don't get.
Speaker 2:So, yeah, that's the eating me too. That and ramen. I'm upset I can't.
Speaker 4:I can't eat ramen.
Speaker 1:I told you I got a spot. It's $24 but still send the information.
Speaker 4:Kevin, I paid $19 for filet mignon yesterday.
Speaker 2:For the baby.
Speaker 4:No for me.
Speaker 1:I wish I had filet. This is like chicken but every time. I swipe I'm just like no, that shit was fire too.
Speaker 4:Because I never had this. It was filet mignon strips. But they cooked the filet mignon in the wok and then they put it in the ramen. I said this shit is fire.
Speaker 3:So it was flavor, it was flavor.
Speaker 2:And then it had the grilled onions in there too.
Speaker 4:Yeah, I said okay, I'm hungry, now let's wrap this shit up so I can go.
Speaker 1:It's going to open up too. That's nigga rum, nigga scum it still sounds like oh nigga, you like, fire that main name, oh shit oh man, okay, okay.
Speaker 2:How do you navigate guilt or shame when old wounds resurface in a relationship or at work?
Speaker 4:I see it as growth. It's something that shame and guilt is something I feel like you got to work through and I think when you feel shame or guilt, that's just you acknowledging the fact that you fucked up.
Speaker 1:Yeah, I was going to say that's okay to feel too. Yeah, fucked up. Yeah, I just said that's okay to feel too. Yeah, because some people feel like you're not supposed to like I hate the phrase like I don't have any regrets and I'm like that's kind of unhuman, like yeah like that's the lack of accountability, bro I just thought about no regerts yeah that commercial is dumb as shit.
Speaker 4:Oh shit. So you ain't got none. No regrets I think I just found one.
Speaker 1:My bad, my bad, no, but that's, I think, yeah, yeah, it's just, I don't think my old wounds resurface at work.
Speaker 2:Actually, I love the shit on my job. I think my old that's good. That's a bomb ass job. I'm in there doing whatever the fuck they tell me to do, I think. But I do see where they resurface in relationships and I think previously I wasn't that shit run rapid. I ain't even feel like to you, this shit was just running rapid. It was shit run rapid. I ain't even feel like to you, this shit was just running rampant. It was. I was fucking people up because I was fucked up. I ain't fucking like to you.
Speaker 2:But in recent, especially in this relationship, um that I'm phasing out of, um, I think I think I actually started to take accountability and recognize where where my wounds were also as fucked up as some of the stuff that I was complaining about that was coming from him Projecting. Yeah, it's like that, like when they ask you, can you see the details of your hand, but when they're this close, you can't see it. I couldn't see what I was doing because I was busy telling him what the fuck he was doing. Nigga, you did 10 things today, but I did 15. And I didn't see what I was doing because I was busy telling him what the fuck he was doing. Nigga, you did 10 things today, but I did 15 and I and I didn't see it yet, so so you weren't holding that mirror up.
Speaker 2:I wasn't holding that mirror up. I she was holding. I knew that I was holding it but the motherfucker was looking that way. I wasn't um, I wasn't, I, I just wasn't, I just wasn't fucking taking accountability. Straight like that, straight like that.
Speaker 4:That's the growth I'm proud of you Now.
Speaker 2:It did not save my marriage, however. However, you still got time. You know what I am, so at peace with what's happening. Okay, I'm going to say you still got time. Thank you, I'm at peace with that.
Speaker 4:I'm in love with love.
Speaker 2:You know what, and I am too, and I feel like the way that we are able to coexist, knowing that this is coming to an end, has been more peaceful than us coexisting in a relationship.
Speaker 1:This almost is like relief for us both. So I think we probably finna be some bomb ass friends.
Speaker 2:I'm not even gonna lie to you, because I don't have nothing.
Speaker 1:Friends, right yeah, no, no, no, no, no, no, no no no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.
Speaker 2:I told y'all niggas, I'm still healing. I say it every episode A nigga's still healing.
Speaker 4:She don't listen.
Speaker 1:I'm going to listen.
Speaker 2:I didn't say I was fucking him, I just said, hey, if I needed to, I know who to call.
Speaker 1:Listen Like you said that money.
Speaker 4:Hey, hey. I'm just listening, just got to stay all I'm going to say is to love intentionally. You have to have no other options well then, hey, that's how.
Speaker 2:That's probably why we need to go ahead and just do what we're going to do putting hay in the barn, huh that's some old shit.
Speaker 4:I thought I was an old nigga think I went back to sharecropping oh god, I'm not finna sometimes you gotta put the hair in the bar just lock that motherfucker okay, last last jam question, cause what I'm not finna do is this for another 15 minutes with y'all two niggas.
Speaker 2:Hey, you're the fucking barn. Shit shut up for someone who's listening, who feels stuck in their past, pain. What is the first step that you can that they can take today? You have to acknowledge that you're in pain first.
Speaker 4:Yes, accountability, accountability, accountability, that's my take today you have to acknowledge that you're in pain.
Speaker 2:Yes, Accountability, accountability, accountability. I, that's my. What am I take on that?
Speaker 1:Dealing with past pain.
Speaker 4:Yeah, because sometimes you're in pain, you don't realize you're in pain.
Speaker 3:Yeah.
Speaker 1:Yeah, find what the forgiveness is.
Speaker 2:Oh.
Speaker 1:I like that Find what you need to forgive. I like that you're not gonna forget.
Speaker 4:No, find what you need to forgive if it's self, others or whatever. Well, what enough perks, you can't forget I know, I think I'm still over that shit.
Speaker 2:I'm gonna about it, trust me so you seen?
Speaker 1:what's that movie? The, the movie with for the kids what. Joy, all that stuff.
Speaker 4:Inside Out, yeah. I got some core memories this nigga eggnated just talk about this dissolved with those pills that's funny. When I watched that movie I said I said, damn, if I can get inside my mind like that, I can fix a lot of shit that's a good ass movie.
Speaker 1:We would fuck ourselves up and be like only the good things get you high, nigga.
Speaker 4:I tell Inger look here, man, you been around her too long and that's actually a good question.
Speaker 2:So for the listeners, when you guys watch this episode, put in the comments what you think the first step to healing your inner child is, so we can see what your thoughts are a balcony not the balcony, none of you let it go don't put the balcony.
Speaker 4:That's what I'm gonna to do. I'm going to let it go.
Speaker 1:I'm going to let it go. The balcony no, never mind, ew, never mind.
Speaker 2:Oh my God, this has been another episode of the Heavyweight Podcast.
Speaker 1:Once again I am.
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