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Invisible
In a world where responsibilities often overshadow personal dreams, many feel unseen despite their sacrifices. Whether at home or work, the longing for acknowledgment is universal. We explore how these emotions shape roles like being a father or provider, and challenge misconceptions about strength and vulnerability. Even the strongest need support—let’s normalize checking in and offering empathy. It’s time to redefine resilience and ensure everyone feels valued.
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Speaker 3:The message behind saying the title of the Heavyweight Podcast is to be able to say that we can weigh in on some heavy shit. What we're talking about is important from every aspect of it. It's a heavy weight. It's not just about physical weight, but the weight of things that can weigh our minds. So I think it's dope that we can have this conversation. So I think it's dope that we can have this conversation. All right, what's good? This is episode 186 of the heavyweight podcast. I'm your anti-social host and never your favorite, studding to fly back again with this lady and these two guys. Go ahead and state your name for the beautiful people out.
Speaker 2:Chill Welch's Ah.
Speaker 4:Are you grape or prune juice? Concord, it's your boy Molito.
Speaker 2:What's up everybody, it's your girl, des the diva. I hope y'all miss me like I've missed you. Welcome back, thank you, you're welcome. Thank you, say it, maurice, up everybody, it's your girl Des the diva.
Speaker 3:I hope y'all miss me like I've missed you. Welcome back, thank you welcome thank you say it, maurice.
Speaker 2:Go on, molita.
Speaker 4:I didn't say nothing. Kevin, how was your week?
Speaker 3:I mean, you just won't smoke before I'm not gonna go ahead and say it I was gonna say, before people start speculating, that it was like a contract negotiation. Now she was enjoying her life.
Speaker 4:It was definitely a tonight's conversation situation.
Speaker 2:No, definitely we had to renew her contract, and then you're gonna be mojo, jojo.
Speaker 4:I love the way she's I love the way she said that she cracks me the hell up, I'll be rolling over. I can see how she can be exhausted and be around, but she is funny yes, but I love her.
Speaker 1:She's funny tell me your week sir oh, lovely, lovely, lovely that sound like heartburn nah, it actually is. I got Alka-Seltzer on deck at all times, my god, at all times. That's good. Hopefully get some good news soon. I had some interview for escuela, so I guess I should say school. I don't want to get shipped up out of here, but but I think he's safe. But it was good it was good, yeah, fingers crossed my week was cool.
Speaker 4:It was, you know, heads up and down highlight with my daughter gymnastics competition. She did her thing, showed up, showed out, made us proud. She was super happy. I think the best part about the week was her being happy, like the joy on her face made me more happy. So yeah, that's it.
Speaker 2:It was a cool week and can we get a hand clap for her four medals?
Speaker 1:let's go come on that's my hell, yeah, oh, okay.
Speaker 2:I guess, come on oh, you meant the button four medals, like she did her thing, that's dope she did her thing.
Speaker 4:We're proud of her oh, modest mo you know we're proud of her. Oh, modus mo, you know we're proud of her. Like the ghost said, job's not done oh goodness, job's not done. We got two more to go before state job's not done you didn't do that while you was there. No, I didn't. No, I didn't, but job's not done. I let her celebrate, but I don't know. Job's not done. So she was back at practice yesterday.
Speaker 2:She did a fabulous job.
Speaker 1:I dropped my done. How was your year? Yeah, yeah, we need a year recap.
Speaker 4:I had a great time. Turn 40. Bones immediately start cracking. It was cracking before.
Speaker 2:Stop that shit. No, don't hate on me, because no, the fuck they wasn't In.
Speaker 4:December cracking before. Stop that shit.
Speaker 2:No, don't hate on me, because no, the fuck they wasn't. In December I had knees like Megan January, not so much which Megan the stallion Fox, that is valid. The motherfucking stallion Son.
Speaker 3:There's a couple of them, Jesus.
Speaker 1:Was this poster?
Speaker 2:I'm gonna stop you right there cause you laughed at your own joke, so I know it's about to be some bullshit. I do not have time for it?
Speaker 3:did you have full mobility in your? Toe, oh boy let me tell you three oh shit, shut up, I need water.
Speaker 4:Ooh, I need water not this nigga snorting McFly. You're weak, sir. Not this nigga snorting mcfly your week sir my week was cool.
Speaker 3:Um, I uh went to work fuck that place. Oh, pick the kids up. I like I had a. I told you the conversation. I'm gonna fucking have the conversation, uh. So they brought me in the office, for they call it coaching, and any driver out there knows what the fuck that means. Now, uh, they bring you in the office, they review camera uh, you're driving and they want to talk about your uh, your habits.
Speaker 3:But when I walked in there, uh shout out the ray. He looks at me and he goes what's up, man? Uh, what time you start? I said I started at eight in the morning. He's like did you work, uh, nice last week? I said no, I didn't. He's like, um, well, this ain't you. I said, oh, that's, that's not me. He's like nah, man, this is somebody at night. So, yeah, there's no, uh, we don't have to review anything. And he was like how was your weekend, man? I said it was cool. You know, I'm saying I went to the gym and played uh, basketball, uh, at the gym with my boy, patrick, and he goes oh, that's what's up.
Speaker 3:What gym you go to? I said, uh, powerhouse amenity. And then he goes oh, man, I was gonna sign up for that gym. I said oh shit, where do you live? He goes uh, I live right down the street. I said oh, so you live in the same area as I do. That's what's up. And then we began to talk about where he stays. And then we realized he was the next door neighbor of Patrick. He's a family of the show. And I proceeded to tell him oh, when you see Patrick again, tell him 6-0. He'll know what that means. And he goes oh, ok, it was like that. I said, yeah, let's ask him why it was 6-0. So I whooped Patrick's ass in basketball 6-0, and then I remember, in the middle of that ass whooping, he asked me why I wasn't that tired yet. Shout out to Body Barbatino. Shout out to Body Barbatino, but yeah.
Speaker 2:I ought to flatten the ball before we got to six hell yeah, if I gotta ask you why you not tired, there's a motherfucking problem.
Speaker 4:First of all, y'all think the six-oh is the bad part. He took an L when he got to the gym with the hairline.
Speaker 1:I knew that was coming. I knew that was coming he got a bad hairline.
Speaker 4:If y'all would have thought of a pick, I said come on, patrick always to him. Come on, patrick, I'm not in it, and I know when he hear this, I can hear him right now saying fuck you, mo Nigga. Come on, you saw the picture too. You look ridiculous, nigga. Come on, you make it look bad.
Speaker 1:Pick a side, what are you saying Like LeBron's picture?
Speaker 4:No, nigga, when he had that donkey like oh, you gotta just cut it bro. That nigga had a Jefferson with half top. It started here and I was like Patrick.
Speaker 3:Come on, bro. Did you say he was doing a permanent salute?
Speaker 2:Oh, my God.
Speaker 4:He's up there with Stephen A. I'm like God damn Patrick.
Speaker 3:Shout out to Patrick man, that's my boy, though.
Speaker 4:I mean, Patrick, you always talk shit. I talk shit a lot. I talk shit because I like you, I know the real reason why you lost those games.
Speaker 2:You talk shit, because what?
Speaker 4:Not you. No, hell, no, you said it. I talk shit because I like you you said it. Patrick good dude, you set yourself up for that.
Speaker 3:You said it.
Speaker 4:Patrick a good dude.
Speaker 3:He just he did something to the head. You know why he lost that game with those Paul Georges? He shouldn't have wore those games. Yeah, that's yeah.
Speaker 4:You don't wear those george's. The job is already finished oh man yeah.
Speaker 3:So shout out to him, shout out to ray their neighbors, you know um paul george missed the first round uh, I had a.
Speaker 3:Well, see, I'm conflicted right, I was conflicted right, using your influence. I was walking out on thursday to pick the kids up, so I left work early and I was, I was zoned out and I was walking out of Thursday to pick the kids up, so I left work early and I was, I was zoned out and I was walking out of the building and I was, uh, there was a chick that was walking past me and I hear you like Kendrick Lamar. I said who she was. Like you, you like Kendrick Lamar, I said, uh, does she?
Speaker 4:know that Kendrick's like five foot five.
Speaker 3:I.
Speaker 4:I is like five foot five. I. I just I don't know, do people not realize?
Speaker 3:that you're over six. You're six feet tall. Wait, you're, you're. You're not a small human being. I don't think she was going by height or just this face. I think she was going by even hairstyle I don't think it was.
Speaker 1:So you got mixed twice. Who?
Speaker 4:because you got, they thought you was driving yeah, what was this person of the uh other complexion?
Speaker 3:she was not white. No, oh was she. I think she meant it as a compliment, but I was just kind of like it threw me because I never.
Speaker 4:That was never a comparison I've ever heard in my life.
Speaker 2:If she ever said that to you again, look her dead in her face and say stop trying to fuck oh, but I'm not tired of you saying that y'all don't say that at work, don't say that at all, I don't yeah I like all I don't.
Speaker 1:He was off the clock.
Speaker 3:I like money it feels like a bad idea.
Speaker 4:He was off the clock.
Speaker 3:It doesn't matter, I like money On premises. I was still on premises. Yeah, he was off the clock.
Speaker 2:I'm tired of you saying that it's a private conversation. Oh God.
Speaker 3:But yeah, that threw me. It did that because I gave Patrick a ass whooping, so anyway, that was my week, so are we safe to get into the shenanigans?
Speaker 2:Let's do it.
Speaker 3:Yeah, yeah, you guys, let me pick. I don't know Des. You need the napkins.
Speaker 2:I might. It's like my beer, you never know. Tissues Depends on what you might say.
Speaker 3:I don't know, I don't have my waterproof mascara today, all right, so that's not good for you.
Speaker 3:Since you guys, let me pick, I'm going to pick one of the topics that at the time was important to me this week, because all these are usually curated by what's going on in the weeks, our lives. So this I call it. The topic is called you matter, right. So this week, the reason why this came to be was I was I was talking to marise earlier in the week. I don't know why he's laughing, I was talking I'm laughing because you said you matter.
Speaker 4:I say, except for drake you ignited?
Speaker 3:so I was working during the week and it was it was a day where I didn't really talk to anybody and I was working and I realized that. And it was a day where I didn't really talk to anybody and I was working and I realized that and it was amplified for some reason that day and I was walking into my customers' buildings and just getting the trailers and moving and I realized no one noticed me, like I could walk in and out like a ghost and no one would have known. And then I was walking in and out of the break rooms at work and I realized no one even. I was like in and out of the break rooms at work and I realized no one even— I was like I felt like—I literally felt like a ghost, like I could move anywhere and no one would notice. So I ended up eventually talking to Maurice that day and he asked me how I was doing and I told him. I said I did feel invisible today. So that's where that stems from. So what does being invisible mean to you guys?
Speaker 1:Not that, because I would love that shit.
Speaker 2:Me too.
Speaker 1:If I could walk in the room. It's work. Are you serious? Hell? Yeah, I think. For me it feels more like feelings not being validated is invisibility to me, because instead of I don't think of it as vision, because getting in the routine of stuff and just being expected of things and not like thinking of that stuff. But when you don't go beyond that, don't go beyond how you're feeling, how you're doing and any of that stuff, if nobody asks or shows any sort of I don't know the word, it's not compassion, I don't know the word, I'm looking for.
Speaker 1:But you know what I'm saying gratitude or whatever consideration, things of that nature it almost feels invisible, like, yes, you're expected to do this, but it would be nice, like a little attaboy, so that's it sounds like you're saying like we don't get some form of appreciation. Yeah, at times that happens oh yeah, I get it. Get out of here Shit. So that's the invisibility to me. But yeah, it's not a visible thing Because, yeah, if I could do it, it hell. Yeah, I'm walking in and out baby.
Speaker 4:I see this as kind of like two-sided right, similar to what you said, kevin. Like I do think it's um, like, uh, both like being seen as far as physically being seen, and also because like andy's and we're talking about being physically seen right, and also like the the um, because we're all human, so we have the inclination to want to be seen like on an emotional level as well as like what kevin's saying. So I do see it as being a combination of both and how I can see, from time to time, one side way heavier than the other, um, but similar, I mean, I think, physically being seen. I'm one of those people I really don't want to be seen. I I do like, and if when I want to be seen, you'll know, because I'll actually I'll make it a point to for my presence to be um, known.
Speaker 4:But there I do have times, like when I'm out, like francis, sorry, sorry. So when I'm out in public, so, like me and my wife, we got, we got our, we got our routine or whatever, and so when we leave the gym we go to, you know, we go get our protein, coffee, all that stuff, right, and so every day it's the same guy. Now it's a black guy. I, you know the youth football team and my wife talked to him. Oh, she's polite, I'm not. I'm like nigga, I don't want to talk to you and it's just like that. I don't want to be seen, don't bother me.
Speaker 1:You don't say that, do you?
Speaker 4:No, I say have a good day. Oh okay, have a good day. Not today, have a good day. So, like in those type of situations where I feel like your, your interaction would be as a as a distraction for what I'm trying to achieve in the moment, I would prefer to be invisible in those moments. Now, I do agree with Kevin. Like we all do have a desire to be seen and appreciated in some way, and which is important especially for, you know, in situations like relationships and fatherhood like you want, you want, you want to be seen, you want your actions to be validated, because who doesn't want to be validated? That's just part of being human. So I do see this as being like a two sided thing.
Speaker 2:I agree with them, niggas. I mean, they said it so well, this is what we were waiting for, yep, for two months, and I've never I don't know, I've never not been physically seen, so I don't know what that feels like, but definitely emotionally not seen. I've experienced that.
Speaker 3:So I agree with these two next year and I thank you all for making me chuckle in the or or letting me know that you got me, because you guys all responded in your own way what because kevin was like, uh, rob a bank. And then you said I see you. And then you were like, if you want to talk, so like you guys, all right. So I appreciate that. We love you, I appreciate that we love you. I appreciate that truthfully.
Speaker 4:You know who really see you? Alaric? Oh yeah, he see everything I eat.
Speaker 2:Oh, he's so cute.
Speaker 4:Yeah. Oh man, he's going to be a problem. I like him.
Speaker 3:So when and where do you experience invisibility?
Speaker 2:Oh, at my house with Hayden Daddy is where I feel the most invisible Hope, his ass see this.
Speaker 2:We can clip it, don't clip it. I said what I said and I say that because the current job that I have I absolutely feel like they see me there. That's probably one of the best companies I've ever worked for. They're very good at making sure that you are in a good space mentally. They hear you out, your suggestions are taken seriously, so that's not an issue right now. In my friend group I've narrowed that down to women that I can and the male friends that I have that I can pour into them and they can pour into me, so that I can, and the male friends that I have that I can pour into them and they can pour into me. So that's going good. It's the damn Hayden's daddy that don't listen to nothing I say and that is where I feel invisible in the living room yeah, that's like that's a commonplace.
Speaker 1:It's the truth. I mean I'll feel that at home and stuff with the, with my wife and the kids sometimes, but I'll usually at home. It's easier for me to express myself. So when I feel that way, it's expressed more like at work. I'll feel that sometimes, but I'll prefer that at work because, like, if I'm not being seen, I'm probably not doing bad. At least you know what I mean. But when I'm doing good, these motherfuckers just let me be. That's when I just kind of just start doing bad on purpose fuck it.
Speaker 1:I'm gonna do what I want.
Speaker 1:Let's do what I want well, those are like the main places, because friends group I mean you just, we got everybody got their own lives. So I don't expect shit to be like a certain way, like when it's with friends and I don't speak or we don't see each other or hear from each other, like I, just it's easier to just all right, let's reach out and we could make it happen to make it happen. If not, it's not like one of those things where I'm like, oh, we don't see each other or hear from each other, like I, just it's easier to just, all right, let's reach out if we could make it happen to make it happen. If not, it's not like one of those things where I'm like, oh, you don't see what I've got going on. I'm like you got everything going on too. So it's, it's usually just those two places, like the grocery store and shit. Hell yeah, let me be invisible. Hell yeah, it's the the common two for me.
Speaker 4:I can't really say that I've felt invisible lately because I've been in the same environments. The only environments I've really been in is home and gym and I definitely didn't feel invisible at work because for some people people are just like talking to me and telling me random shit I don't care about and I know the management's always watching, so I know they see. Don't feel invisible there, especially when you got a certain coworker that texts you like. Was that just you here? I saw you here. I was like god damn nigga, you paid attention more to me than cops.
Speaker 3:What up, Mark?
Speaker 2:Like he sees you driving. Yeah, oh hell, no, yeah.
Speaker 4:Did you just make a left right here, like god, nigga, where was you Like oh?
Speaker 3:no, what up, tucker oh not you calling him out.
Speaker 2:So oh, you got two.
Speaker 3:Same person.
Speaker 4:Oh, so yeah, like I can't really say I felt invisible.
Speaker 4:I think the only place I probably felt, on a more personal level, I felt invisible to myself because, you know, a lot of times recently I've looked in the mirror and didn't know who I was or I didn't see myself and trying to find myself or the new version of myself, after dealing with all the stuff I was dealing with and, you know, in my process of healing, trying to see who I actually am in this moment, because I've had a lot of changes where, you know, certain things that I was, you know, fond of or into I'm not anymore.
Speaker 4:Certain things that used to interest me don't interest me. So it is like I am finding out myself to be a different person. So a lot of times I look like I had a whole conversation with my wife yesterday but I don't like. A lot of times I look at myself and I don't, I don't know who I am and a lot of times I look at myself I don't like, like I really don't like the decisions I made and like the younger version of me was really not the smartest sometimes. So I think the only place I probably really do feel invisible is probably in the mirror.
Speaker 2:That was deep.
Speaker 1:That was a great answer, is it?
Speaker 4:what we waited for two months ago. What I mean, I don't. She's trying to validate.
Speaker 2:I'm sorry shut your ass, nigga. See, that's what I was looking for. See, that's that shit I be talking about shut your ass did you call me ignorant nigga? I mean, did you just call me ignorant nigga?
Speaker 1:no, he said he wanted, I wanted the ignorance I mean sometimes. Did you just call me ignorant? No, he said he wanted the ignorance. I wanted the ignorance. I mean sometimes the actions.
Speaker 2:Don't look over here, mcfly. Wait for me to say some bullshit. I can see you out the corner of my eye, mcfly, or you feel invisible. Nigga, go ahead. I was, nah. I ain't gonna let you get by Because I got.
Speaker 1:I got a question I didn't you feel invisible.
Speaker 4:Go ahead, I was, I was. You know, I ain't gonna let you get by, I got.
Speaker 3:But I, I got, I didn't uh, yeah, I know I was like he he did it.
Speaker 3:I was like I wonder how many times I can do this without them noticing. Um, all right, so, um, that you guys touched on it. It's it is a usually at home thing where you feel the most invisible. For me, it it's because you're expected to do so many things so frequently that it's kind of an expected thing and they don't realize that you're more than the provider.
Speaker 3:You're a person who has wants and dreams and aspirations and passions, and sometimes when you get so caught up in the, in the hamster reel of of doing things in life, that you kind of feel invisible because it's like oh yeah, if you're not providing this for me, then what are you really? Um, outside of that is what you start questioning about yourself. Um, uh, so there at work, it's not necessarily a bad thing, it's just I just realized and it hit me when, when I was working, like damn, like I really could, just like I could grab some shit, walk the fuck by and walk out, no one would notice like, oh damn, was he here? Yeah, the only thing probably catch me is the cameras are like gotcha nigga, but um, oh, that was always other than that, but it was just, yeah, that usually it's.
Speaker 3:It's that um at home, when you just try to, when you're realizing that you're doing something so frequently that, uh, the fact that it feels like that's all you are is that, and um, it does take a lot from like like mo pointed out your identity because you, you're like, damn, am I just this or am I? I gotta? There's got to be something more than this, um, so that that that leads to the questioning and I may be feeling alone in those instances, um, but yeah, so I answered that, yeah, I'm cool.
Speaker 2:Yeah, of course I don't need to go back and answer the other ones, and I agree with the way that you described home, because that's the same thing I'm experiencing.
Speaker 3:It does get. It takes a toll because you start feeling and questioning yourself and you put so much energy into now the questioning, as opposed to just fucking figuring out or actually aspiring to to make more meaning of it. So you're spending so much energy and time on it it becomes draining as opposed to you feeling fulfilled. Um, I like the freestyling shit. Let me see. Um, what do you wish people would see and celebrate about you?
Speaker 4:see and celebrate see, when I hear that I, I, I, my my initial answer would be nothing, because I don't really need people to celebrate me. I if the only people I really would want to be celebrated by is my family. But what do you want them to celebrate about? Just just my contribution to the, to their lives and by my level of provision and the level of comfort I provide them. That's it. It's like going back to what Kevin was saying. It's just like the feeling of appreciation, like just enough appreciation to confirm to me that, yeah, I'm doing the right thing and give me enough motivation to go harder. I don't really need praise from the outside to go harder.
Speaker 3:I don't really need praise from outside, but it does become a uh, a tasking, a taxing thing when you think like when you come home, they're like hey dad, uh, I need this.
Speaker 4:And you're like man, you know, I got cussed out the other day because I told her. I told her on, so she left her toothpaste open so it got like kind of you know crusty or whatever, so she couldn't use no more. I said, okay, I'll buy you. I'll buy you toothpaste, just use mommy day toothbrush for now. And so a couple of days went by without me bringing home toothpaste. So I then I basically got cussed out by a seven year old. You said that. I went. I said okay, so I made sure. Yesterday I said look, because your mouthwash is low so don't bother me for at least another three weeks.
Speaker 1:Wait till they shoot a teenager?
Speaker 3:Oh, I'm not doing that.
Speaker 1:Like that shit. Oh man, you just come back and you're like oh, my shit's just missing. You're like oh, it's just in your bathroom. Yeah, you just took it.
Speaker 4:It's that way with the body wash. She would just come like when she she's like I'll just, I'll grab you a mommy's body wash. I was like what?
Speaker 1:Yeah.
Speaker 4:Oh, mine was out. Do you know that bottle was $15? That's not for you, that's not for you.
Speaker 2:We got this, mr Bubba.
Speaker 4:You probably have some Irish spring around here. That's funny.
Speaker 1:Uh, to be honest, for me, I think for what I want people to see is I want to say compassion, my compassion, but like that I actually am like rooting for people, like even like strangers and shit, like I see people and I like actually am rooting for them because, like you can tell, some people are like apprehensive about stuff and being open with things, because I guess the world is so confrontational, nobody believes that anybody is actually genuine when they're like oh hey, I like that or this or whatever it's like. Sometimes that shit sucks when you like and you can just tell it's just like a fake, like oh yeah, yeah, thanks, you're like no, I mean that Like I really want you all to do good, but I don't necessarily want that to be celebrated, but I guess that would be good because that would mean more people hopefully would be willing to like express true, like emotions and like gratitude and things of that nature. So that would be kind of like the biggest thing I would want people to like know or see out of me myself.
Speaker 4:Well, I want you to know, Kevin, I give you a compliment. I mean that because I don't give compliments.
Speaker 1:I appreciate it.
Speaker 3:You know I don't like people he gives out compliments for specific people and everybody else.
Speaker 2:He's on stage.
Speaker 3:Other people get smoked Well. I appreciate smoked well.
Speaker 1:I appreciate that. I appreciate that.
Speaker 2:I don't have anything that I, that I need anybody to celebrate. I wish, however, people would stop referring to me as strong, because I feel like.
Speaker 3:I'm telling you. It's a myth.
Speaker 2:I've heard it does wonders in certain situations probably. Yeah, I'm telling you it's a meth.
Speaker 3:I've heard it does wonders in certain situations.
Speaker 2:Probably. Yeah, I think when you look at women as anybody, as strong, you tend to pile more on them, but when you carry something as if it's gentle, soft or delicate, you take care of it that way, you nurture it that way. So I'm kind of tired of people calling me strong because I feel like they think she's strong, she got it and sometimes, nigga, I ain't got it that's how I feel about money.
Speaker 4:Ah, that's my average reaction but you feel like you ain't got. I know I ain't got it. Yeah, I ain't got it, I ain't got it.
Speaker 3:I ain't got it, so you got you. Good, no, no, I'm not, really not, I'm really I don't. No, I don't not today. Inflations, yeah, for real it's an interesting take.
Speaker 1:So you don't take that as a compliment. Would you rather be referred to as delicate?
Speaker 2:I just don't want so much emphasis put on my strengths Because, for example, people are always like oh, you lost all those babies, you're strong. Oh, you go through this and that you're strong, but inside I'm losing my fucking mind. But I'm just cool on the outside because I don't give that much of me to everybody and I and I feel like because of it, other people that may have gone through the certain situations, if they don't appear as strong as I appear, you give them more love and not you but, like other people, give them more love in nurturing, whereas me they just feel like I got it. So the nurturing doesn't come, the love doesn't come, the support doesn't come because they're like you got it.
Speaker 3:So the importance of saying you need to check on your strong friends.
Speaker 2:Yeah, yes, exactly, precisely yeah.
Speaker 3:Because a lot of people assume well, I don't need to do that for them, they got it. Yeah them, they got it. Yeah, and it's like you got to check on your strong friends too, and I I I get that, and the.
Speaker 1:The thing, too with the. The delicate part, though, is how I look at it. If it stays that way, after a while people just start saying that person's victim, playing victim that's true, that nature, so it's like it's a tough, that's a tough one, that's a tough one. So that's, that's good to know, that's true. But people gotta stop doing that too, because you one, that's a tough one.
Speaker 2:So that's good to know, that's good to know, that's true but people gotta stop doing that too, because you can't put a time limit on how long it take for a nigga to heal, that's true that's why I stated what I stated, that it's people assume to know somebody and don't have a fucking clue yeah, that's all the
Speaker 3:time. Well, I'll say on, this is to be seen and celebrated. I talked to Maurice about this a lot, but it doesn't bug me anymore as far as I understand why it's happening. It's. The perfect example I can give is even when social media is an example right is even when social media is an example right.
Speaker 3:If, say, some random person you went to high school with shares, an accomplishment their kid did or something, and you'll have all your classmates go oh my God, congratulations, that's so dope. But then you do the same thing and they go oh my God. That person's just searching for attention and it's like but I'm just doing, I'm trying to celebrate my kid, like you're celebrating your kid, but the, the, the common phrase or term comes is it's cool until it's you and the other. I guess the, the backing thing for that is you don't know if it's they have smoke with you or if they think even to the, to the point of what des is saying, they think you're the person that has it together. So I don't need to give you the compliment. They need my compliment. You don't need it, you know.
Speaker 3:I'm saying like you don't know if it's a phrase of if it's coming from a place of uh, ill intent, or if they're just looking like you don't know. If it's a phrase of if it's coming from a place of ill intent or if they're just looking like, I don't need to say prophecy, you're already doing it. You know what I'm saying. I think that comes from.
Speaker 4:I think it comes from a place of shade. What they just they. They would prefer to throw shade on you than the hell partner star. Because they, because they apart there's something about your post or about you personally that offends them, because they don't equal up to it. Because all people do on social media is compare their lives to other people's lives.
Speaker 1:Yeah, oh, that's not what.
Speaker 4:I do. I mean, I said people, I'm talking in general, I'm not talking not everybody, but you know most people.
Speaker 3:I use that as an example because I do see that the most common certain people will post things and everybody will like fucking flood, it, flood the gates and the other person do the same exact thing. They're like oh my god, they're just looking for attention and it's like but I? The whole point of social media is that. Isn't it like when you want, you want the like high five, when you do something good, just like when you're going going through shit, like you want people to say I got you, like we get it. Like, um, there's that dark side too, yeah. So like when I look at being seen, it's more or less just saying dude, like I get that. You might look at me and say, hey, like, yeah, you, you did it, you got beautiful kids, you did it. You fucking have a dope job or whatever like to what they see as dope, but they don't see what you go through with those things. So it's like yeah, like I would like a high five on occasion. I don't need your fucking praise like that, but like yeah like.
Speaker 1:Yeah, acknowledge me.
Speaker 3:Acknowledge that I am doing it because there's a lot of motherfuckers that you're giving praise to that.
Speaker 3:Don't really do it. Yeah, you know what doing it, because there's a lot of motherfuckers that you're giving praise to that. Don't really do it. Yeah, you know. Then it's like so you'll have like I don't like deadbeat dads that'll pretend to show up half the time and be like, oh, I'm such a dope father and they're like oh, my god, you're a great dad, knowing that they only see their kid once. Uh, whatever blue moon, but then they're fucking people flooding them for it. When you you're actually showing up every day and you're exhausted every day and everybody's going ah, this nigga's just looking. You're like but nigga, I do this every day. Like you know what I'm saying. Like if I post three times a week, just know that there was like fucking fucking 200 fucking situations happen and you're only getting a glimpse of the three things that I'm just proud of in those moments, cause I thought, I thought to pull my camera out and take a picture of the moment.
Speaker 1:Like but you got to know what the like with the deadbeat shit.
Speaker 3:whoever posts their comments on there like oh look, he's trying, so it's like it's crazy to think of when you when you think about it, because it's not none of the when you think about it, because it's not none of what we do is an easy task, especially when you're trying to do it because you realize what it takes or what requires to show up. That's the biggest part of the battle is showing up. Not everybody wants to show up. They want the credit for showing up, but not everybody actually wants to show up because there's hard time to get. It's the work you just kind of triggered.
Speaker 3:People don't want to work I'm gonna tell this story because I think I told it, but it's been so fucking long for my brain. I told you a story when I at the the parent teacher conference, right, yeah and the whole time I've been hearing how old ava's uh teacher is, right.
Speaker 3:So I'm hearing, oh, he's old, he's old, he's old. So I'm like, all right, cool, I'm looking for this old geriatric nigga. So I walk into a classroom and I'm like this nigga's about my age. I think, yeah, his hair is gone, uh, but yeah, I'm pretty sure we're the same age. Then he saw my sweater. He was like, oh, deadpool, you're a deadpool fan. I'm like we're the same age. Then he saw my sweater. He was like oh, deadpool, you're a Deadpool fan. I'm like we're the same age, you might be younger than me, and I'm like I've been hearing how old this nigga is the whole time, right. But so we have a conversation about Ava's work and the word like we're going over. Then I'm also thinking, if you think this nigga's old, then what did he think of me? Ancient.
Speaker 2:Ava was the one telling you he was old.
Speaker 3:Not just Ava, oh, I heard it for like a few months Like, oh yeah, ava's teacher is old, he's like an older guy and I'm like thinking thinking, oh, this nigga's like in his 50s, sick. I said this nigga's, we're in the same age bracket oh yeah and I may be like, if y'all, if y'all, think he's old, then what the fuck do? What am I looked at we old.
Speaker 4:Well, see that old I'm 39 and my daughter's and my daughter's eyes. I've graduated. I used to be. I used to be half fat, half skinny.
Speaker 3:Now she said, I've graduated to skinny fat you know, what's funny is every, as you said, that my brain, all my brain chalked it up to, is shit you put in coffee she said I'm skinny fat that is funny so you're, you're, you've moved up and I moved up skinny first in reference to what you're feeling.
Speaker 2:I'm wondering how many women feel that way, because I honestly, I think when women post their children, everybody says something under underneath it. And I'm wondering how many dads feel that way, because I will say, the hayden daddy is actually a good-ass daddy and I see very few good-ass daddies. I think you guys are phenomenal fathers, but then I I know quite a bit of deadbeat daddies and I do see people wiping their puck asses up underneath their posts and I'm wondering oh my God, You're so great.
Speaker 2:Women don't. I don't think women. I don't have children, but I don't think women. Well, hell, even when I post Hayden, I'm not even that nigga mama and people still be under my posts celebrating Hayden. I can honestly see how that could be a damn problem. And it's only happening to men, because I do not see that happening to women.
Speaker 4:My wife and I. We both have the same picture and have a similar post and she can get twice, but at the end she has more friends than me because she's sociable. I'm not. I usually comment under yours because I see yours.
Speaker 2:I don't really see her, but I'll see yours and then I'll comment I celebrate every damn body, though. I will celebrate every damn body, whether I know you or not you doing something dope, or your kid did something dope. I'm gonna say something underneath it, but I, I can see how you, how you could feel that way, because I now that when you were speaking, I was thinking this shit don't happen to women yeah, it happens a lot like you'll see it and you'll be like I know for a fact this nigga's a deadbeat and they'll go.
Speaker 3:Oh my god, you're like he's doing so great. And you're like right, right, right he was there for 30 minutes right like that like that movie I'm here to pick up my son.
Speaker 2:He picked the son up, put him down and walked out, but um, yeah, it's just yeah.
Speaker 3:To be seen in that light, then it's also I mean, I don't care about it as much. Now.
Speaker 4:People are anticipating me making music now, so that's nice to feel again now what I'm saying, like unanimous, like I guess I'm not people, oh my god well I think you do not understand how many people love you.
Speaker 2:I swear to God, I'm telling you I had a conversation with somebody and he was like McFly is hip-hop and I'm on the phone like Rick, tell me more.
Speaker 3:It's so weird to me because I have a skeptical reaction to that, because if they tell everybody else but the person, it's kind of weird.
Speaker 2:You ain't lying. But I get it a lot, though. I hear a lot of people say positive things about me, because if they, can't say positive things to you and then they don't react to your shit.
Speaker 3:It's kind of weird to be like hey man, that guy dope. Oh, there's an opportunity to tell him he's dope myself. Nah, I'm not gonna do that shit. It's weird, like it's so. It's kind of you become skeptical, like Niggas might be shy around you Shy.
Speaker 2:It happens. Maybe they're intimidated.
Speaker 3:It happens that does happen, they're afraid that they're gonna get a Maurice reaction. Stop trying to fuck.
Speaker 2:Oh, because, baby, I told Maurice his wife look great and he was like, don't be trying to fuck who, I'm shit, I was just god she looked great.
Speaker 3:I'm sorry, shut up um, but yeah, I would just like to be celebrated for being trying to be a dope person, just not as a dad, but just as a person. I try to look out for people as much as I can and uh, shit I hear like on occasion I'll talk to like peers at work and they'll ask me about the podcast and I'll try to give insight to what, like what it took to put in a podcast, because people have asked me about what it takes to make a podcast and I try to be informative so people try to like keep that shit to themselves. It's like I just I can just give the information or insight that I know about uh, actually getting off the ground.
Speaker 4:So only give information. I know people are genuine genuine about starting shit that makes sense because I got, I got one cousin. You know the fuck, you are niggas, I'm not replying to you. Stop texting me, oh my god. And the fact that you got you're not even texting me the fact that you got to hit me up a message on my phone number should let you know nigga, don't, I don't talk to you that's why I say to co-workers and they're like how, how is mo doing?
Speaker 4:I'll be like, if you have I mean, if you have a number, I think it's five people in that goddamn uh job got my number so what do you see and value in celebrating others, your peers? Oh yeah, okay, I'm happy you said tears, because my mind went first um you, you ignorant, um I don't know. I I get a high off of celebrating other people like I feel really good pouring into other people I heard that you get that same effect when you do coke off of titties I. I'm hearing this thing, about meth.
Speaker 1:I wouldn't know about when you do coke off the table and I'm hearing this thing about.
Speaker 3:About meth and ejaculating, oh God, with cops present.
Speaker 2:And was there a video for that? They didn't post no video. They didn't post a video. I wouldn't look for it. It's considered porn. He was naked.
Speaker 4:He was fondling himself. It was considerable. It would be kind of crazy to have him with his pants around his knees fighting off 15 cops while jerking off?
Speaker 3:That would be fucking weird. He would have to have no.
Speaker 4:My initial thought to that story was that I think meth is the perfect pre-workout.
Speaker 2:Get the fuck out of town, so anyway.
Speaker 4:Huh, you didn't gonna work out If he fought five cops.
Speaker 1:He had to fight, but you'd be cleaning the shit. You'd be like 15.
Speaker 3:I swear to God that's nuts, no pun intended there.
Speaker 2:Anyways, I enjoy pouring into people. I definitely love it.
Speaker 4:I enjoy pouring into some people. Once I feel deserving. Now I feel like I'll get the typical I'll see what you're doing. But the people I really pour into, which is mostly my close friends and my family, I'll pour into them. When I see them doing good, when I see them really sticking to their goals or achieving or trying to improve, I support them. I have no problem celebrating people taking the proper steps in life. But if you're not, I'm not. I don't give no fake love. I'm going to tell you, nigga, you need to fucking up. Don't know that. But if you're not, I'm not. I don't give no fake love. I'm going to tell you, nigga, you need to fucking up. Yeah. And on a more personal level, I always celebrate my wife. Yeah In that ass, because them RDLs is helping.
Speaker 2:Okay, kevin.
Speaker 1:You want to go. After that, You're going to put it on, Never mind. That was a muscle pause. The importance I think would be.
Speaker 4:Oh, hold on. I also want to say I appreciate Kevin Wendell for giving me his login so I could watch.
Speaker 1:For cable, not like OnlyFans or nothing. We got to clean that up.
Speaker 4:I was going to just leave it open.
Speaker 1:Yeah well, we got to clean that up. Pause. That's the meth nigga, right? That's what they said when they was done. We got to clean this up There'll be a couple cops how they're when they was done.
Speaker 4:We got to clean this up.
Speaker 2:Definitely a couple cops how they go change uniforms. Oh God, oh God, oh my God.
Speaker 3:That's a hell of a story to have after your shift, yeah.
Speaker 4:When your wife asks you how you feel.
Speaker 1:Let's not talk about it. It only works because there's 15 niggas there, because if it was you, by yourself, you're suppressing that Nothing happened today.
Speaker 4:Hey, honey, how was your day? It was nuts today, oh my God.
Speaker 3:This nigga was strong. I didn't see him coming he was doing all this with one hand. It was crazy oh my god, and at some point he switched off. I didn't know.
Speaker 2:He was ambidextrous who damn turn is it to answer the question?
Speaker 3:welcome back, because oh, um, then he grazed me with that one hand.
Speaker 2:He was oh my god, you just gonna keep going nigga. You are killing me today, mcfly Damn.
Speaker 4:Oh God, Okay, go ahead. Just answer, Kevin. Long story short.
Speaker 3:I transferred oh.
Speaker 4:I transferred right after he transferred. Go ahead, go ahead.
Speaker 1:Well, I've been back 30 minutes. Damn, I can't even say nothing he transferred.
Speaker 2:Go ahead, go ahead. Well, um, I've been back 30 minutes.
Speaker 1:Damn, I can't even say nothing like this is all fucked up, cause I was like I was gonna say she already said, I already spoke.
Speaker 2:I've been back 30 minutes watch this.
Speaker 1:See, this is damn. You guys fucked this up, cause here's my answer, and then you'll see why I don't want to say it, picking up each other like you. Uh, you kind of change the vibe with everything and you kind of spread love, all right, so it kind of helps bring the morale up.
Speaker 4:I've been back 30 minutes guys 30 minutes, you know, did you think we were going to change who we are?
Speaker 2:They've already lost their mind.
Speaker 1:I think that's the importance. Like it just brings up the whole vibe of everything, Like one person feels good, they might make the next person feel good. Hopefully they ain't that type of thing Like I feel great, so fuck them.
Speaker 3:So I just feel like that spreads more I agree you okay then there was one, one time when he was looking at me and it was a standoff. He had his dick in his hand and he was staring at me and he was jerking and I was like what do I do now?
Speaker 4:When I saw the story I said why did they not just tase him? They might have.
Speaker 1:Mess they might have. Sometimes they just eat that.
Speaker 2:That would have been horrible. Being tased, butt naked.
Speaker 3:The thing about it if you're the last one.
Speaker 2:Don't you think it's horrible having to fight?
Speaker 1:that next time.
Speaker 2:Yeah, I wouldn't have did it, I would have went home.
Speaker 1:That's the day you retire. Like, I guess the same for me that awkward eye stare they lucky they didn't shoot him. Okay, wouldn't that be crazy? Would that have been? Never mind, I don't want to go down that that was a different path.
Speaker 3:I like to celebrate.
Speaker 4:It would have been a lot of shots fired.
Speaker 3:I like to celebrate victories, Like when I see people fucking, even if it's. I'd like to celebrate victories when I see people just trying. I like to celebrate the fact that they're they're trying, Cause I know it's not easy to try, Cause that's the hardest part of most journeys is taking the first steps towards the journey. So I like to see it and when I see it, I applaud it. Even if it's in secret, I applaud it. I don't, you know, I try not to keep it in secret. I literally will either send a message or I'll react under a post if it's on social media. If I see them in passing, I'll say something if I see them in the past and I'll say something.
Speaker 3:But it's important because a lot of times sometimes shit. In most cases I can even speak for myself.
Speaker 2:You need to hear it.
Speaker 3:Yes, as you're on that journey, you need to hear people tell you they see what you're doing, because it'll give you that extra boost on a day you might be feeling like shit. So I try to do that when I see and the value of it is, uh, just the understanding of treating people how you would like to be treated and that that's how I try to live by until until it's disrespected, I try to treat people how I like to be treated so yeah, um, but in all seriousness, you know that that's.
Speaker 3:I like to joke a lot, but yeah, you treat people how you like to be treated. Uh, I just know, if a nigga was uh jerking off and I was across from him, that would be my last day on the on the force anyway, um the force what? Is the connection between visibility and power the connection between visibility and power yeah, you feel insane and you feeling empowered by like empowerment.
Speaker 1:Okay, I was like I'm thinking like the wrong way you think about like trump?
Speaker 4:yeah, like shit, like that, oh fuck sure, um, I think it goes back to what you were saying, like um, about um, like you letting you acknowledge that you see someone trying so.
Speaker 4:So, like when you, when, when you're trying hard and you're trying to achieve a goal and someone acknowledges your, your, your progress, that kind of gives you like an extra boost of power, like a willpower not necessarily like physical power, but like willpower to continue on, like, okay, maybe I am doing something, cause a lot of times, especially when it's like weight loss, like other people are going to see it before you see it, you know, because, I mean, we people are just super critical of themselves already. So I think it always takes, you know, a second person outside view to actually kind of like like reaffirm that yeah, I see your gains, I see what you went up to, I see a growth, whether it be something physical, like a mental growth, whatever the case may be, or maybe you just out here, you hustling harder, trying to trying to improve your status, whatever it is, I do think that there does come a sense of motivation and additional willpower when you, when your actions, are acknowledged by someone else.
Speaker 2:I agree.
Speaker 4:Especially when that person is not your partner, cause you feel like your partner is like you, just saying this shit because you're supposed to.
Speaker 3:But when other people say it it's different. I take a stance like with your partners. I even take the stance in how it's said, because if you feel like it's the generic oh yeah, you're doing great. It's like you say it about every fucking thing, at least switch it up Like let me know that this one is different than the last. Like oh yeah, how's my food? Oh, it's great. It's like you said the same shit about my wife.
Speaker 4:Yeah, I was dinner. It was good. Everything is good.
Speaker 1:I'm not going to say it's bad. It don't feel genuine at all. Yeah, because it's like if, yeah, that's true, I'm like fish sticks. Yeah, dopamine, baby, that's what I see. Dopamine, dropping that dopamine, that's just you feel good after that like after a good compliment most of the time. I ain't never had a compliment and been like fuck these it, like it don't even matter. I can't say fake compliments make me feel like that.
Speaker 3:Well, that's not real. That's not a real compliment, like it don't even matter. I can't say. Fake compliments make me feel like that?
Speaker 1:Well, that's not real.
Speaker 3:That's not a real compliment, like we've talked about this, like when you felt like you bombed a set and you're like I'm off, I go, good job. And you're like this nigga's just saying that, to say it Like I know I did bad.
Speaker 1:See, that's tough. That's tough for me Because I me, because I've told people that had a bad set, good job. I didn't say you had a good set, you got up there and you did it.
Speaker 2:No, but if you you had a bad set, I'm like it wasn't good, like the job wasn't good, but you like the set wasn't good, but yeah, you got through it, you didn't quit but to someone who couldn't have even done what you got up there and did, you probably did do a good job.
Speaker 4:Yeah, I ain't getting my ass up there for nothing.
Speaker 1:Good job, Not set. You're set Set Cause I had to tell somebody that I was like and then also you critique yourself a little bit different than the rest of the world critiques themselves, so what's?
Speaker 2:a bad set to you might have been a good set to someone else I said.
Speaker 3:I learned that We've talked about it before with the Kendrick Lamar pop out show and that nigga did not like us six times and as much as he fucked up on that and euphoria and the fact no one cared, I didn't give a fuck. I was like you know what Maybe I'm too hyper, because you realize that people were just happy to see the performance. They don't necessarily care about if it was perfect or not, but as artists we do care about it being perfect or not same politics, yeah politics ain't perfect either nigga.
Speaker 1:I watched some shit where the nigga restarted his shit. He was reading and he was like, oh, I was like is this what we do?
Speaker 3:Oh, lord, was that it?
Speaker 4:Everybody answered.
Speaker 1:God damn it, hi Watermelon sugar.
Speaker 3:No. What mantra could someone say to themselves to help them put themselves in a mattering mindset?
Speaker 4:At least I ain't that bitch.
Speaker 1:Nigga.
Speaker 4:That's the mantra.
Speaker 1:Damn God damn, god damn.
Speaker 3:Damn the whole table is what's wrong, dude?
Speaker 2:Oh, I just went. You say that dumbass shit.
Speaker 4:Yeah, that shit ready to go quick. Sometimes I'm not. I know I'm not the only person. Sometimes I be like. You know, I find pleasure in being better off than certain assholes that have treated me like shit. So I'm like, yeah, at least I'm better than that bitch that's an interesting phrasing. Some assholes that treat me like shit, but I mean but right, but my, my, my main mantra, what I tell myself is that is I always tell myself just be one percent better than you were yesterday myself is.
Speaker 2:That is I always tell myself just be one percent better than you were yesterday.
Speaker 4:That's good, you should have led with that, you ain't gotta, you ain't gotta, you ain't gotta be, you ain't gotta be 100 better, just one percent. So like you know, if like, especially like and like, I'll just say like in the gym, right, so like, if I could do, if I did, you know, six reps last week, but if I get six and a half better, that's.
Speaker 3:Yeah, I get you I was hoping you said that what she said I was going to and I was like, nah, it's low-hanging fruit, that's what she said uh, but that's it.
Speaker 4:Yeah, just just one percent better. And that that applies to like everything. Like, let me be one percent better, like a better father, better husband, better person, better friend. Let me take one percent more. Like, let me be 1% better, like a better father, better husband, better person, better friend. Let me take 1% more steps today. Let me let me progress my, my, my diet 1% better today. Like, it's just just 1%, it's just about. It's all saying that to try to confirm to myself okay, the goal is constant growth and you don't have that growth by least in bounds. You know, the race is won by the swift. I mean, it's not won by the swift, but won by the consistency.
Speaker 1:Taylor too, she did pretty good I don't have a mantra.
Speaker 2:I talk to myself in the mirror in the morning, though, and I do tell myself you do this for you and not for them. So just to kind of, I mean, I guess. So nigga, but I didn't want to, it was mine, damn it, not everybody else's I like that it does, but I do feel like, like I.
Speaker 4:I because I said to myself that like when I go to work, I do it for them, my wife and my daughter, because, because you know, I can live out my car I don't have anybody that I do, but I'm just saying I'm saying I get what you're saying but like they're saying, but like that's my motivation because, like McFly said, I've told people at work I'm only. The reason why I still got a job is because of my daughter. My daughter is saving you from this ass whooping.
Speaker 2:Let me elaborate. I come from a real bad background of people pleasing.
Speaker 3:So so.
Speaker 2:I have to remind myself like bitch, look, we ain't moving for everybody. So you need to wake up and say, at least I'm better than that bitch, and I just might add that shit in because that's a damn good one.
Speaker 3:If it wasn't for this, what is it?
Speaker 4:This pension and.
Speaker 3:Health care. Health care and your wage. You give them a two-piece from Jollibee's or what Two-piece.
Speaker 4:That's where it's going to start. Do you dip it in gravy? Look here. You remember, Stacy, how Stacy beat Mike ass. Yeah, yeah, be like that.
Speaker 3:So a muck bang.
Speaker 2:We're going to see you on the news. You're going to be on the story after the nigga jacking off and beating up the cops they gonna have to.
Speaker 4:They gonna have to carry me out. They gonna tase me if I didn't have to, if my head in my door, they gonna have to tase me cause I, it ain't just one. I'm lining them up.
Speaker 3:I'm not a fan of you. My mantra is usually I always hear my dad's voice, but it's usually you know what you need to do and that's what I say. I look in the mirror in the morning. I'm like you know what you need to do. I'm like I hear his voice every fucking time.
Speaker 4:I can say that shit, I'm like you're right, go back to sleep, I'm tired of shit.
Speaker 3:No, it's always he always. My dad's never been the. That's very simplistic. Like. He looked at me and we're like, if I feel like I'm struggling, he'd be like, well, you know you need to do it. And he'd be like, yeah, you're right, you know you got to get up and do better than you did before. You know what you need to do. You know what steps it takes to get to where you're trying to go. Simplistic and straight to the point for me, yeah you haven't you answer I don't think so.
Speaker 1:I was waiting for him to answer um, I think I tell myself a lot like I just want to see if I can. I know that sounds weird, but like what's that movie?
Speaker 4:I think I can't.
Speaker 1:I think, well, that's not a book we grew up with fucking Fucking little train and little engine but like certain things I set out like I'm not sure, Like I feel like I have the capabilities of things, but I'm like I just want to see and like, when it gets tough, it's like it's just work. Like most of the things that are tough is just work.
Speaker 4:Yeah.
Speaker 1:So it's from this motherfucker the things that are tough is just work. Yeah, so it's from this motherfucker. It's like you've got to just do the work so.
Speaker 4:You got to know that everything you need to be happy and successful is inside you.
Speaker 3:You just got to have the will of the dollar to bring it out. Yeah, just don't do it with meth.
Speaker 2:Oh, my God.
Speaker 3:We didn't go over our Valentine's Day recaps, but if you guys want to do that before we get out of here, I went to work.
Speaker 2:Yeah, valentine's Day is on Friday. It was on a Friday. I went to work too, and it was my mom's birthday. Happy birthday, mom. She turned 60.
Speaker 4:Oh, she young and she looked good. She single Black don't crack.
Speaker 2:Knock it off. She said I might got somebody for her quit trying to fuck and she looks great. I ain't got no problem with an older woman black don't crack, black don't crack so yeah, we did her birthday weekend and we collected at her house and ate dinner with her, and then on Saturday we took her out too. I think that place is called Javier's Mexican restaurant. Wonder why that one was chosen? The place is called.
Speaker 4:Javier's Mexican restaurant. Wonder why that one?
Speaker 2:was chosen, chosen by me, nigga.
Speaker 1:Shout out to Dukes, oh man.
Speaker 4:We didn't do nothing, crazy man. We just wanted to eat. That's it. The funds were low so I couldn't take it to a balcony.
Speaker 1:Oh man, you built one you said there was things all over the place.
Speaker 4:Whatever the balconies? Yeah, I mean, but I can't get arrested.
Speaker 1:Oh, okay, that's probably wise. Yeah, that's probably wise, because the both of y'all getting arrested.
Speaker 4:Yeah, plus my daughter had practice so we had limited time. I, I limit time, so I couldn't really get in there like I wanted to. You know, I uh.
Speaker 3:I paid bills. Congratulations. This has been episode 186 of the Heavyweight Podcast. Yeah, yeah, we appreciate you. Welcome back Des. Like, subscribe, share, comment. All that shit Till next time. We love you. Peace, peace, we love you.
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